As I Go Away

I’m beginning to learn to go away from you
I’m beginning to learn to stop crying for you
I loved you with all my heart
In a way, I have never loved anyone
I trusted you with my mind, body and soul
In a way, I have never trusted anyone else
I allowed and yearned for you to touch
All those corners of my soul I never allowed anyone else to touch
All those corners of my skin I never allowed anyone else to touch
I was loving you with every touch with every kiss
I was melting and melting in you, into depths that I never knew existed before
And, now as you begin to walk away
And, now as you begin to move away
I cried I screamed, I fought
I cribbed and complained
I cried and soaked pillows
I dropped down and cursed my wounds
Those wounds which never stopped bleeding
Those wounds which gaped again and again
Those wounds which stared and questioned itself
When you kept repeating that I’m not understanding you
Maybe I don’t understand you enough
Maybe it is just a misunderstanding
I also wish again and again it is so
Because I never stopped loving you
Even when you ignored me
Even when you forgot me
I cried out loud and loved you fiercely still
I cried through nights and loved you fiercely still
But I realize I need to go away from you
I’ll go away and away from you
But as I walk back my heart still whispers that it loves you
I’ll ignore that little heart for you
For it knows not its love was not worthy enough.